A Changed Man

I am a changed man.
From this point on things will never be the same.
When we pause time for a second we realize everything we have done to get to this point.
Our journey is a long road.
A trail of tears and pain and heartache.
And for what?
We push through the pain because we can’t let it get the best of us.
We are stronger than that.
For those who have said that humans are a weak species they do not realize the power of love.
Love is strange.
It takes us to the highest highs
and the lowest lows.
And the euphoria we experience, and the pain we feel is real.
Love is a struggle.
It makes us fight for something greater than ourselves.
However, it makes us do stupid things as well.
The longer we struggle the more at risk we are for pain. The longer we struggle the more we ask ourselves, “is it worth it?”
But we keep pushing through the mud and thorns of the broken path for hope that we will see the sun shine through the branches. That we will not let the pain get the best of us.
Anyone who does not understand that feeling does not understand life. They do not understand how strong we are as humans.
Our path will be forgotten eventually. For it is just a moment in time.
And the hope for a better tomorrow empowers us to keep going.
Our journey is a long road.
A road of joy and bliss and love.
A road that makes me know that I can never go back.
I am a changed man,
And for that I am thankful.

Face Your Fears

You were heaven sent
In a world with no tomorrow
But you fell hard against the ground
In a pain too hard too swallow

You brought hope in searching time
With gears that ticked forever
Eternity brought tired souls
Exhaustion led hearts to sever

You keep looking towards the sky
Hoping it will give you answers
But looking deeper inside yourself
Stops pain from spreading like a cancer

There’s only love and hope and faith
That lead the way from here
Every time you try to turn and run
You haven’t come to face your fears

You were found in a broken place
Full of hopeless dreams and measures
You were different from the rest
A gift that brought no pleasure

You brought the light when it was dark
Cured the blind of broken vision
Soon the sun became too bright
You closed your eyes with indecision

You keep looking towards the sky
Hoping it will give you answers
But looking deeper inside yourself
Stops pain from spreading like a cancer

There’s only love and hope and faith
That lead the way from here
Every time you try to turn and run
You haven’t come to face your fears

Where will you go from here, I could help you if you’d like
Life’s sweet journey is a gift when it’s not full of isolation

Temporary Soul Mate

I was your temporary soul mate
The one you called your own
But as I reminisce on good times had
I reminisce alone.

I was your temporary soul mate
The other half of your whole
But when I think about today
You’re distant and you’re cold.

There’s nothing more I could have done
I fell hard like a fool
You were my soul mate ’til the end
But I your stepping stool.

I helped you get to where you are
Be who you wanted to be
But in the process I lost my love
That loved so tenderly.

I hope you have a life of joy
A life of ecstasy
I hope you have the perfect life
I wish it included me.

I hope you know I’m always here
You’re my soul mate through and through
You’ll never change enough for me
To forget how I love you.

As temporary as we may have been
As short as time that passed
Remember when you’re feeling weak
Your old love could have last.

On the Road

On the road again
Running from my fears
But I know when I reach the end
I still won’t have escaped them.

On the road again
Leaving behind what I know
I need another friend
To keep the pain away.

What am I doing?
Why am I not thinking straight?
I’m on the road again,
And don’t know where I’m going.

I could be happy here,
But I will never know
I don’t have the patience to wait
So I find myself on the road again.

On the road again
Surrounded by darkness and the cold
But something keeps me moving forward
Interested in the unknown.

On the road again
And I’m not the only one
Running away from what I know
To find something more.

I think I know what I’m doing
I think I’m thinking straight
But only time will tell
Where I end up going.

I might be happy here,
But what if I never know?
Patience takes lots of time
And I’m on the road again.

On the road again
Stronger than before
I might feel alone
But I know I always won’t.

On the road again
Learning as I go
I’m not running away
I’m running to find hope.

I know what I am doing
My mind is thinking straight
I can’t control time
But I can control my fate.

I know I’m happy here
I know that I’ve found hope
I’ll never be alone
As long as I am on the road.

Don’t fear the unknown
Don’t feel bad for yourself
What you are looking for
Can only be found in one place.

It’s never far away
Even if it seems hard to reach
It can be found on the road
Go ahead and take a leap.

The Definition of Confidence

Anxiety:
An internal reaction to stressors.
But what am I stressed about?
Life?

Life:
A chance to change the world.
But what am I doing to change it?
Nothing?

Nothing:
An absolute zero; emptiness.
But why do I feel this way?
Time?

Time:
An opportunity to make the most of.
But what if I don’t?
Loss?

Loss:
No chance to change the past.
So how do I move forward?
Resilience?

Resilience:
An ability to overcome.
But where do I go?
Future?

Future:
Something that has yet to take place.
But how do I plan it?
Dream?

Dream:
An ideal outcome in one’s eyes.
But how do I make it come true?
Confidence?

Confidence:
The ability to Dream of the Future and to show Resilience during Lost Time, so that Nothing will let Life be controlled by Anxiety.